Forgive me, for not so forgiving

“But withal, if one is patient in adversity and forgives — this, behold, is indeed something to set one’s heart upon.” — 42:43

Heart is like a car.

When you were born to this well-polluted-mother-earth, your heart was like a car which just came out from the showroom. Fresh, sleek and clean. Unfortunately, that was the best state you ever had. As time goes by, your heart’ld have dents, scratches, corrosion, and even engine malfunction. Forgiving replenish the heart, I assume. Cause when you forgive, it’ll wash away bad substances that influences your heart, especially bad thoughts. Like a car which just came out from the workshop with dents are fixed and paid by the insurance (hmm, reminds me of something, hehe).

So, please let me sincerely say this:

Minal Aidin wal Faidzin

let it ride

“twenty-seven years of nothin’ but failures

and promises that i couldn’t keep

Oh Lord i wasn’t ready to go, i’m never ready to go

let it ride” 

– Let It Ride, Ryan Adams

oh yeah, that “twenty-seven”, make it “twenty-three”.

a bunch of thanks for those who greets me with their “happy birthday”s.

may God bless you all. 

live by the rules, or buy the rules

bureaucracy,  has been my major villain since my parents made my birth certificate.

someone once said to me:

“people who bribes or being bribed will burn in hell.”

“but, the bureaucracies in Indonesia…”

“that is the test”

on the next couple of days, my driver’s license will be expired.

i’ll face my test.

one of the greatest quote, ever

“if you ain’t smart enough, work hard enough”

–Mum

simple, yet very relevant

we are the deadliners

“there’s nothing in this world that is not urgent”

said my current boss, on the verge of a long weekend, a couple of weeks ago.

flaw

my old bad habit:

wasting chances….and time.

scholarshits

have you ever feel like, when you were working on something for so long, or maybe too long, until you don’t know what the fuck you are doing?

i do.

workaround for months, and suddenly you started to questioning yourself.

where am i?

what am i doing?

what’s my goal?

why do i still procrastinate?

why do people fuss?

you predispose this kind of attitude, and you start to indulge in it, and when you do, you’ll be overwhelmed.

no, this is not the symptom of autism, tho people say that computer science students are semi-autistic. edgy? yes. autistic? hell no. well, at least on my case. too many computers degrades social ability, that is certain.

the third encounter

Finally, another encounter.

It’s a bliss. A heart-breakin’ bliss.

That’s all I can say.

kutipan jumat

Entah mengapa Jumat ini saya sholat jumat di mushola kecil sebuah panti cacat yang gerah dan panas daripada di masjid SMU 77 yang ber-AC dan masih banyak cewek-cewek SMU yang nongkrong ^_^.
Dan entah mengapa kali ini saya lumayan mendengarkan khutbahnya. Percayalah, ini sebuah prestasi tersendiri.

Berikut beberapa kutipan khutbahnya (I’m not quite good at this, so CMIIMW):