brain drain

the more lazy i become, the more i remember the way i used to be

boys will be boys: the ultimate search of a true passion

first of all, i’m sorry for not updating this blog for several weeks. you see, when you too indulge in your so-called job (i haven’t worked here, officially, but i have to work some things out, and those some things are include saturdays and sundays workhours, so fuck me and my idealism), you have to find some kind of escape from reality, a kind of thing that surreal, in my case that thing is: diecast

and so i bought this piece of shit 2 weeks ago. a tomica mitsubishi lancer evolution X 1/50 scale model. it cost me Rp 29.800 though, but it worth the penny. and of course i also bought the ultimate holy-thing honda new fit, but i kept it inside the box, in my house where no one, yes no one, can ever-ever touch it but me. while the evo x i brought to my cubicle, where i can use it to ram it to the wall, take it a spin (around the cubicle, not Kemang), and show it to my fellow colleague.

it’s unexplainable, if you know what i mean, to find it interesting. there’s a funny feeling when you can buy your dream ride for less than Rp 50.000 and hold it in your palm.

let it ride

“twenty-seven years of nothin’ but failures

and promises that i couldn’t keep

Oh Lord i wasn’t ready to go, i’m never ready to go

let it ride” 

– Let It Ride, Ryan Adams

oh yeah, that “twenty-seven”, make it “twenty-three”.

a bunch of thanks for those who greets me with their “happy birthday”s.

may God bless you all. 

one of the greatest quote, ever

“if you ain’t smart enough, work hard enough”

–Mum

simple, yet very relevant

code hard, play hard

as a slothful IT labour, which i would never dream of, i mindlessly code day by day.

leaving me in vague, do i have to code for the rest of my life?

i knew that this is not my calling, tho i have to admit that i’m starting to get used to it.

this dreary job could make you insane somehow, somewhen.

remember the ‘all work and no play makes jack a dull boy’ phrase?

so, in order to save my sanity (and my so-called-life), i play.

what am i playin’? well, you already know what i’m capable of, right? ^_^

neo, part II

I’ve changed.

I just hope that I’m on the right track.

we are the deadliners

“there’s nothing in this world that is not urgent”

said my current boss, on the verge of a long weekend, a couple of weeks ago.

remembering how to forget

pernahkah anda cebok menggunakan HandyClean?

saya pernah. rasanya dingin. FYI, saya tidak hobi cebok dengan HandyClean, ada cerita di belakang ini. begini ceritanya.

Jumat, 2 Februari 2007. banjir hebat melanda jakarta. saya berangkat ke BSD dari rumah di Cempaka Putih jam 6.30. tidak ada firasat akan terjadi banjir. ketika sampai di pintu tol pondok ranji, saya diberitahu penjaga tol, “Mas, di depan banjir 40-80 cm, kayaknya mobil mas ga bisa deh”. saya putar balik, lalu memutuskan untuk menunggu banjir surut (ya, saya tahu, itu bodoh sekali) di kampus FKG Moestopo.

ada 3 alasan mengapa saya menunggu di kampus FKG Moestopo:

1. lokasi terdekat dengan pintu tol veteran
2. biaya parkir tidak dihitung per jam, malah kadang gratis
3. mahasiswinya cantik-cantik ^_^

setelah berjam-jam menunggu, saya ditelpon rumah, “jalan depan rumah banjir, kayaknya kamu ga bisa lewat”. ke BSD tidak bisa, ke rumah juga tidak bisa. kemudian

the one-hour-test

Alhamdulillah, saya berhasil melewati sidang.

*yay!*

lumayanlah untuk seorang mahasiswa ber-IQ dan bertampang pas-pasan
(baca: pas gantengnya) seperti saya.

dan sekarangpun saya resmi menjadi pengangguran.

*sigh*

scholarshits

have you ever feel like, when you were working on something for so long, or maybe too long, until you don’t know what the fuck you are doing?

i do.

workaround for months, and suddenly you started to questioning yourself.

where am i?

what am i doing?

what’s my goal?

why do i still procrastinate?

why do people fuss?

you predispose this kind of attitude, and you start to indulge in it, and when you do, you’ll be overwhelmed.

no, this is not the symptom of autism, tho people say that computer science students are semi-autistic. edgy? yes. autistic? hell no. well, at least on my case. too many computers degrades social ability, that is certain.